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damn surveys [May. 13th, 2006|12:56 pm]
You Failed 8th Grade Geography

Sorry, you only got 6/10 correct!
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interview interview interview [May. 13th, 2006|12:43 pm]
[Current Mood |gigglygiggly]
[Current Music |chris yapping on the phone with his friend]

i got an interview! i'm pretty excited because they're flying me up from north carolina, and that is the first time i've ever gone out for a job that would actually pay hotel and airfare for me to interview! wish me luck!

the job is in saratoga springs, ny, and if i can move back up there i think i'll be the happiest girl alive. i want out of the south so badly it hurts! my good friends work at this same school so i would actually have friends around me again. ahhh, doesn't that sound like fun?

chris and i are about to head out for coffee and then go see sean boonstra, this sda pastor we started listening to and really enjoy. he did a prophecy seminar not too long ago, and it's so fascinating to hear an alternative perspective on prophecy that really contradicts mainstream christianity and suddenly puts the atrocities this country commits into a realistic perspective.

anywho, that's it from me. i got an interview! :)

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Dreams fulfilled [May. 2nd, 2006|10:35 am]
[Current Mood |amusedamused]
[Current Music |silent 2nd period as the kids shuffle paper and do busywork]

It's an ironic subject line I choose for this, my first entry in MONTHS. I have fulfilled two dreams - gaining NC state licensure so that I can teach and landing a job at a high school.

The irony is this:

*less than a month after I started teaching I got pregnant. OHHH the nausea! Never anything more than that, but so sick feeling and completely worn out. I gave up my position in January.
*some minor health complications early on this spring semester ended up being just major enough to force me to miss too many classes, I dropped out of UNCA, and I am now one class shy of making my NC license permanent rather than temporary.
*now that I'm pregnant I have no desire to teach full time!

So there we have it folks. I dreamed of something, I got it, and now I'm letting it go. How very gemini of me (but I'm really supposed to be a Cancer, so go figure!). Today I'm substituting, though, and I must say - the pay is better and the work is, well, the work is me catching up my lj - who could complain?

Chris and I got married April 9th in a very small ceremony on the beach down near Wilmington. It was a great day and we couldn't be happier about, well, everything! If you comment and give me your email address, I can send you a few pictures.

I hope to stay in touch better through lj, but I make no promises. I seem to go through spurts. I did read over some other friends journals when logging onto here today, and it was good to catch up a bit. It seems some of you are going through some really difficult times while others are still having lots of fun, and all of you are very reflective and philosophical about it all. The writer in me misses that aspect, and the friend in me wants you to know that even though I may suck at updates - you can always email me!

I'm starting to feel very motherly. Did that come out as sappy and nurturing as I think it did? That's what I was afraid of!

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slight returns [Jan. 6th, 2006|08:49 am]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |tick-tock-tick-tock-tick-tock-tick-tock-tick-tock-tick-tock-]

This one's for Josh :)

Okay, I've been allowing myself to get a little rolled under by my 6,003 commitments. how is it that I always manage to say yes to all these things that i expect to help me in the long run, only to find myself - again and again - running in so many directions that nothing gets all of me and nobody really sees my best?

That said. I've been teaching tenth grade English since October, and it has been pretty rough. I chronicled my experiences in another livejournal i started because it was a class requirement - learning2teach - for those of you who may be interested. i decided that i wanted to finish my degree full-time, and not try to divide myself, so i am not returning to this school. I can go back later if I want, and I'm not sure this school is what I want... way too much politics.

I have to jump in the shower so I can head over to the bank. I get the final verdict about whether I can buy my condo or not this morning - exciting! The lady who's working with me is really great, she's playing around a LOT with my debt/income ratios, so let's keep our fingers crossed. But I've already decided and prayed about it, if it's meant to be it will be.

AND the other BIG news is

I'm getting married!

Chris and I have decided to take the next step, and got engaged over Christmas. We're planning an October wedding, which excites me. I was thinking about moving home after school finishes in May, but then realized I should stay planted for a little while. Maybe stability is a feeling I would enjoy. I certainly would like to try it. But I'm so in love, and as long as Chris stays by my side, life will be all good.

I'm leaving now for the shower. But I'd like to add one little caveat to this story, kudos to Jack Osborne for his 6-month challenge. I watched this 3-part special on the Travel channel last night about him deciding not to be a selfish, spoiled celebrity 19-year old, and he forced himself to get in shape, travel the world, and rock climb. He began with a kickboxing camp/tournament in Bangkok, ran with the bulls of Pamplona, went ice-climbing (which he HATED) and finished by climbing El Capitane in California. It was really inspiring and encouraging to watch.

And with that, I'm off.

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a BRAND NEW WORLD [Oct. 20th, 2005|02:37 pm]
[Current Mood |ecstaticecstatic]
[Current Music |jimmy cliff "the harder they come the harder they fall"]

okay okay.
i accidentally made an anonymous comment to my own journal because i replied through my email instead of logging into it.
yes, everybody, it was me who got the job!

i signed my contract today and i start tomorrow :) talk about short notice. and things are working out really well for me, because i now have a letter i can take to the credit union to see about getting a mortgage for this condo i want to buy. my supervisor at unca found a replacement for me, effective monday. i'm so very happy to be done with that class, it was not going well at all. so that's that.

chris and i are turning our 30 days notice into the landlord today. i can't wait to move and live closer to the city. it's nice being in the country, but it just doesn't work out well for people who have limited funds and transportation. i really hope i get this condo! but if not, we're going to find a cheap place to rent in the meantime, and hopefully move into the condo by december at the latest.

alrighty. i need to write more, i'm sure, but i need to fill out my paperwork for the bank. i'm working tonight, and i have a million things to settle before morning. i can't wait. i'm so literally excited, it's such a fantastic feeling!

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manic maniac [Oct. 16th, 2005|06:31 pm]
i have been in this incredibly productive mode lately.

does not transcend to stupid humanities course i'm teaching, students about to mutiny against me because they obviously know more than me and i'm done caring. pissed off they got stuck with a writing teacher for this section. what the fuck ever. don't care anymore, especially since there's no position available for me next semester. two months, semester ends, we go about our lives, happy as can be.

this tuesday morning i have an interview at the high school for THE job! i am so excited i could pee. i turned in my resume and got a phone call within hours for a meeting. i really hope this comes through for me.

chris and i are moving out of our beautiful country home with mountain views. i'm thinking of buying. i found these great little condos. of course, a condo is not my perfect world, but neither is renting this place in the middle of nowhere. this place would be my very own, and it's FAR closer to the high school, and everything else for that matter, than this big house. check out my potential digs - http://www.thegrovecondos.com/

friday night chris woke me up in the middle of the night because his brain woke him up with thinking. nothing worse than not being able to shut off, even during REM. we stayed up and talked for hours, it was great. he thinks our house is haunted. YUCK. but he's finally on board with moving, since he's been the one pushing for us to stay here even though i've wanted out since we landed. feels good to figure life out from underneath the blankets at 4 am next to the person i love most in the whole world.

and here i am copying recipes from old online newsletters for yummy soups and breads. we're going organic, and he's thinking about finally being a vegetarian. that will make my life happy and him healthier :)

old itunes from the place in wilmington form my backdrop and i've got this strange mixture of nostalgia and hope for the future swirling through this room we call the den. damien rice plays now, earlier it was mr. brightside, and i remembered all those angst-filled entries from last spring. funny how life picks up. it will crash again, i know this now. i'm okay with the mania. keeps life fresh and entertaining.

i love the crispness in the air. i wish this phase could last forever. makes me long for new england, where i hope to land before i'm too old to remember loving it.

i've also decided that aging is not a bad thing. i'm looking forward to 30, more than 2 years away. isn't that just scary! chris turns 30 next month. i'm planning the 30 days of chris' 30th birthday. anyone with fun little ideas, please share!

must go. hungry. making mexican garlic soup. no good for fresh kisses, but happy bellies will provide :)

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mood tags just don't do it [Sep. 19th, 2005|07:51 pm]
[Current Mood |blahblah]
[Current Music |pink floyd "fearless"]

i can never fully describe how i'm feeling with that stupid pink cat thing. so i choose blah.
i'm actually not blah. i'm feeling a little out of it, honestly, and i'm about to go catch about an hour of tv before writing my paper that's due tomorrow morning.
so i have a couple directions i can go for next semester career-wise.

a. get the fulltime position at the high school teaching english
b. take the 12 credits i need next semester and do either
1. adjunct work at AB Tech
2. try to get a TA job at a high school or middle school, preferably SILSA
c. apply to random schools in the hopes i can start teaching in january

decisions decisions. i'm applying for everything. we'll let fate work the rest out.

things are going really well, otherwise. i'm finally settling into the routine chris and i have with each other. i'm so crazy about that boy. ahem. man. he turns 30 in november, and i'm planning some really nice little surprises for him. we just have fun together, and we laugh a lot, and we don't hate each other even when we get pissed off at each other. that's a new one for me.

speaking of, i hear seinfeld in the living room and i'm feeling that "need to lounge right NOW" feeling!

peace baby!
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the shock is wearing away [Sep. 1st, 2005|10:28 pm]
I wish that I could say I am shocked by the rescue efforts happening (or not happening) after this category five swung its way through the gulf. I wish I could say I was more surprised when our already growing concerns over fuel were compounded and confirmed when I drove around yesterday looking for an open gas station. Or that I blinked more than I did when I filled up at $3.19 and later heard unconfirmed reports of gas prices in Atlanta topping out around $6-7/gallon.

I see these events happening, and I am not scared or anxious about them. I am curious.

What political gain is there by not sending a faster response to the victims and refugees from this catastrophe? Does our country really not have the resources? What about all the times when we supposedly rushed in and saved the day during foreign disasters. Wait. I don't ever remember hearing the ending to those stories. You know, the ones where we go in and the media announces the plan and we see shots of marines handing out water and rescuing little kids from danger. Have we been bluffing about those events too? Making ourselves look heroic to the citizens of this good country, but now that the event is at home we can't bluff because the whole world is watching. Our egotistical sense of media coverage refuses to let go of this one, and it's not as easy to ignore as perhaps it would be if it had happened somewhere else.

Don't get me wrong. I'm no conspiracy theorist. But I am confused. And like I said earlier - curious.

When we had the gas crisis in the 70s, the government regulated the sale of gas. Sunday was set aside as a "no sale" day. I see that happening now. I see religion getting involved with the politics of this disaster, and honestly, few things on this earth scare me as much as Protestant America getting involved with our politics. With the Christian Right appointing so many leaders and gaining so much govermental control - I have to ask:

What is becoming of Liberty?
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anonymous posting [Aug. 28th, 2005|01:51 pm]
[Current Mood |workingworking]
[Current Music |U2 - "sometimes you can't make it on your own"]

I don't know which of my family members wrote this poem, but it is a great tribute to my dearest Aunt Mary, who passed away just one month ago. She was the elegant matron of our family, and I miss her so much. In tribute -

Who knows where the time goes? A life time is so short, a new one can't be bought.


A day to myself. A mess to clean up. A ship to bring to shore.
I need my love to be here.
A french lesson on velvet with tones of yellow streaming.
There, the feel of polished wood. High gloss, class toss.
Fresh stemware. Everywhere.

Roz who is Mary who is Roz. No blame for Auntie Mame.
Velvet carpets with pushy feet up-and-down on the floor.
Come with me and the world will be yours.

Powdered doughnuts at 3 in the morning.
Up the stairs, the new, clean snow crunching beneath my feet.
Am I really here?
She was really there. There.

The new coats, the 66 Chevy. Man it was heavy.
Red lights and blue under the dash.
Too many speakers even for Carnegie Hall.
The wheel horn still lives with me. It was shiney and bright.

Chubby Checker on the jukebox. A barrel on the deck.
Dancing on the counter with half the neighbors laughing.
The screen door to the store slammed short. Squeeked open but slammed shut.
Who knew all of them. She did Mrs. D.

Vanilla Fudge. Cold. With chocolate crystals in layers. Help yourself.
Peter on the lake. Just give and you can take.

She always wore form fitting gowns flowing with glistening gems.
Around her neck were a hundred diamonds, her hat tilted, elegant, Auntie Queen.

And, who knows where. But I do. Sisters united. And heaven is a better place.
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housten - we're back online! [Aug. 24th, 2005|10:52 pm]
[Current Mood |determineddetermined]
[Current Music |pearl jam's cover of that sad car accident song]

i finally have a steady internet connection!


i need to go to bed, but i just wanted to say hello. and i accomplished my goals from the last time i was on here - i'm standing in front of my own classroom and i'm in school to finish the necessary state requirements to get me in front of a high school and/or middl school classroom. this excites me.

the semester if off to a shaky start, but i'm starting to accept that things in life are generally shaky, so this is no cause for alarm.

i'm sleepy. must go to bed.

it's 10:54 pm. how old am i.

*shakes my head*

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